Sky

Yesterday I stayed for a night under the blue sky. It was the first warm day of this year so I just felt like sleeping on the grass. I swear to God I never felt anything so strong like this necessity to sleep outside. So I did it. 

And I thought about things I'm going to do when my money ends. Solutions. And then I figured out that the sky embraces me so much that I sometimes cannot breath. And that all these principles and rules close every kind of opportunities. And that everyone is at least similar if not the same because nothing surprises people and very little differentiates them. 

And it's all because people live in such closed, crowded community. Everyone observes and lives around the same objects, the same manners, the same buildings and technologies. How are people supposed to be various?

And I figured...maybe this is why I want to live alone and why I don't like too many things. Cause my nature does not ever let me to be closed and completely shaped.

So I thought about this song that has words that expressed what I thought at the moment I laid under this sky. Maybe tomorrow I will delete this because I will be feeling differently but maybe it will just stay here forever. 

Before they will make you go through the gray dawn

Before they will change your fate in an imperfect movie

Before they will teach you how you should conquer the world

Before you stop fear, stop fear…